I have been working on this one for over a week, forgive me for the past tenses.
After my mother passed away, my sisters and I decided to enroll all our girls in dance class. The same dance studio that my mother went to , the same dance studio that we went to. For years on Wednesday afternoons, we would make the half hour drive to Amesbury for our tap, ballet and jazz lessons. As I sat there waiting during my daughters class, so many memories flooded back. It didn’t help that literally amongst the picture collages on the wall were some pictures of my mom. Looking at her pictures, she was so full of life! She was so happy. She loved dancing, she loved dancing school, she loved the family that owned the studio. Its funny, so many people at her services commented on what a great dancer she was and how much she loved to dance, but honestly, I can’t remember when she was well enough in recent years to actually dance. I bet it had been 10 years or more.
It was so bittersweet, heartbreaking actually.
It seems like this week everything has been crappy. I am still dealing with armpit issue. They hurt so darn bad. Still. I went to the doctors on Monday. More blood work. If my levels were high, then Pet scan would be ordered. My levels are elevated by not high enough I guess. My doctor is also trying to get me on a different medication that may help me better.
In the meantime, I am still in pain and I am still sore.
I am struggling with my disease, that’s what the doctor is calling it. Though the whole thing isn’t fully named, I am really having a hard time. I don’t know even how to explain it. Just being is difficult. It is hard getting out of bed, getting dressed, all my daily activities. I have faith that I will get an answer eventually and that I will have a regimen that works for me. In the meantime though, Things suck.
I want to feel better, more than anything. I am terrified that I am cursed with my moms poor health and that I am doomed to follow her path. And I know, I know, situations are entirely different , and yes, I am most likely being dramatic, but I don’t want that. I don’t want to deal with this crap the rest of my life. I want to live the best life possible. I just don’t know how to do this.
I am wrestling with my emotions and reality. What am I supposed to be or do ?
I need to lose this weight. I need to be better and I need to move. But I can’t while I feel this awful on a regular basis . I need just need to have faith that answers and treatment plan will come soon . Its hard .
My mother always saw the light through the dark. The positive through the negative. The love above loss. I wish so much I could be like that , and I swear I am trying . I just at a loss on how to execute it.
Hopefully one day I will rise above and be able to live this life the best way I can .
Hi everyone. How’s the weekend treating you ? I had a very busy Saturday . Which I am already paying for . My body is screaming today . And I slept pretty darn awful . But let’s focus on the positives of yesterday .
I made what is becoming my weekly pilgrimage to see Mum . This week my daughter picked out a red heart balloon that says ” I Love You” and we picked out a bouquet of various colored roses . It’s hard for me to go to the cemetery. I guess it’s the part where I leave her there . All alone . I feel like putting in a couch there for us to go sit and talk to her , lol. I think though I want to get her some of those solar lights so it’s not so dark for her .
I’m trying to deal with my mothers death in a healthy way , but really , how fucked up is that ? A healthy way ? What does that even mean ? How is any of this healthy or right ? Healthy should of been what she was . And right is definitely , what this is not .
I also trying to get my emotions under control because the more upset I am, the more prone to flares I am. I seem to be in a flare state since my mother died and I am in a lot of pain , physically and emotionally. I am hopeful my recent change in meds will help with this, but so far no .
So ,back to my day . We go see Mum , then head for a quick visit with my dad . Then we head to get our hair done . My desperate need for cut and color and my daughters back to school cut . We get there early so we walk around hunting Pokémon . Lots of walking around . We get our hair done , head to pick up my oldest from work and head home . The hubs and I went out for the night to celebrate our 18 year anniversary.
We get home late and I am so exhausted. I’m trying to get to sleep when my daughter comes in upset about Nana. She is crying and inconsolable. She’s clutching her bunny Pinky which her and Nana made together at Build a Bear . Seeing her like this just breaks me . I’m trying to comfort her and myself at the same time . So I tell her about the Signs . Signs that Nana will show her that she is there and with her . I tell her a story about how a cardinal came in the yard the other night while I was talking with my dad . How I know it was Nana . I tell her how even though she can’t hear her say “Hi Maddie , I am here ” she will let her know that she is there with her . I give her a blanket of my mothers for her to sleep with and I head to her room to tuck her in . When I get to her room she holds up 2 Beanie Babies .
Wouldn’t you know ? ONE WAS A CARDINAL ! I burst into tears again . I told her that Nana was letting you know she was here already! I don’t know who it comforted more , me or her .
Even in death, Mum is still looking out for us and giving us what we need . Absolutely incredible.
One of my most favorite movies is The Crow. We even named our dog , Draven , when I was a teenager after the main character, Eric Draven. Mum loved that dog . This is one of my favorite quotes from that film :
” If the people we love are stolen from us, the way to have them live on is to never stop loving them. Buildings burn, people die, but real love is forever.”
Real love . Real love extends beyond a significant other . Real love extends beyond our children , our parents . Real love is love we have for those in our life we would do anything for . Regardless of blood .
Signs are real . Weather or not it originates in your head , if it comforts you , it’s real . For now it’s what I will believe in .
I was up really early on Saturday , 4:30 am , had to be to work for 6 am . Then it was a 10 hr day . Usually after working on Saturday I need to take a nap . I was pretty exhausted when I got home but it was almost 5 so I just kinda relaxed .
We had dinner then I decided I wanted to try and go for a walk . There is a rail trail about 10 mins from my house , so the hubs and I headed there .
Lo and behold , I walked and survived. I survived all 2.4 miles !!!
2.4 miles !!!!
I was dying at the end of the walk but I am so glad I did it .
Then today , my daughter and I headed to my sisters house . First off was some Pokémon Go , my daughter and nephew had a blast . We walked around for a while, had some lunch , then headed back to the house for swimming .
It was definitely not as warm as I would have liked but , I wanted to get some water aerobics (or my version of them ) in .
I was in the pool for about 45 minutes , running , walking , did high knees , jumping jacks and some actual swimming .
Man , was I tired after that , honestly, still am . But – again , I did it !
Not only did I get in exercise this weekend , I am down 8 lbs since I got back in the wagon !
The past couple of weeks I did not get into the gym as much as I wanted. Last week was only twice and the week before was only 1( ugh ) time.
While I was not able to do what I wanted fitness wise, I took the next best thing this weekend and joined my husband at Planet Fitness. Oh.my.goodness.gracious.
This sealed the deal that Planet Fitness is not for everyone, especially me, and that’s okay, but I had to move and Something is better than nothing.
I don’t know if every PF is like this one, but weight machine hogs galore. And the 3 weight benches they had with the barbells attached to the rig, Sweet Baby Jesus…. Once I got in there to do some bench presses – there was only (1) 10 lb plate…. WTF is that ? I looked everywhere. At that point I was so frustrated with waiting for one, then the disappearing plate, I was ready to go after that. When we got there, I did time on the elliptical. Lot harder than I remember, but I did a good amount of time. I think I can use PF for my cardio needs on the weekend, to get moving. But I will not be using it for my regular workouts.
I admit it…… I AM A LUNK , lol. I like to ” Pick things up and put them down” .
I found this meme and thought it was HILARIOUS! Credit to @the_evolving. ( I guess )
So here is how I did at the workouts I made it to :
Weds 4/6 Lift Day!
Overhead Squats = I really did not think I was going to be able to pull this one off, but lo and behold – I did 5×3 25lbs!!! Winna Winna Chicken Dinna!
Sumo Deadlifts ( which are so much fun! ) 5×3 95lbs. Its fun, cause you can pretend you are a sumo wrestler, but when I do it, its more like Fat Bastard from Austin Powers.
After that it was accessory work – 3 rounds
20 R/L side steps with side pump
20 planks – with kneeoff box ( modified)
Unfortunately, I did not make it back into the gym until the next Monday
This was a killer. Complete KILLA
2 rounds = 8 modified burpees, 20 jump squats
2 rounds = 20 kb swings 26lbs, 10 alt pistols ( mod with TRX)
2 rounds = 12 pushups, 15 plank jacks
Time was 23:43
Then it was back on Thursday . Yes, I missed my Lift Day 😦
It was a kettlebell night.
All I can say is SWEET BABY JESUS.
8 KB Cleans 26lbs
8 KB front squats ( 2 rounds just Bw squats )
8 KB Jerks 12 lbs
8 Lunges – BW
time was 27:13
This workout was so hard for me. I was going to stop and cry at one point. I wanted to finish, I wanted it to be over, I wanted to do it. I just Kept Swimming.
Honestly surprised I did not cry or pass out. I was so happy I finished.
Today, I decided to go to one of our State Parks. Maudslay State Park in Newburyport , MA is a place I have been going ever since I was a kid. I absolutely love it there. It is a great place for a walk, run, dog walk, picnic, bird watch, horseback riding, kite flying, you name it, its great . Today , they had a telescope set up so visitors could look at Great Horned Owls that were nesting in the trees above the main building. Its 480 acres of awesomeness. I took a great walk there this afternoon. Other than the obviously pot smoking teens I walked by, the walk was really great and super peaceful. Here’s a little snapshot I took .
I know I don’t look super happy here, but it was a beautiful day . And I thought my hair looked good, lol.
If you get a chance to explore all the Maudslay has to offer, I highly recommend it. You won’t be disappointed.
Bring a water and some binoculars too. There is so much to see .
One of the things I have been actively avoiding this week is the fact that 1 year ago, I was really sick and things for our family took a drastic turn when we experienced a fire in our apartment building. It sucked. 2015 as a whole, truly truly sucked. On one hand its hard not to think about it, cause all of us are stronger for having gone through it. I am still frustrated that they have no answers for me as far as my health goes. I am thankful for Plexus and its effect it has had on my health, a true ray of hope in my battle against this unknown. I am thankful that my amazing kids adjusted to hotel life, then to living in a whole new town, going to new schools and have THRIVED. My kids are unbelievable. At least I know we are doing this parenting thing right. All 3 of my kids are exceeding expectations in all areas. I am so proud of them.
So far, 2016 , it has been a pretty good year. Here’s hoping it continues.
Wonder what this week has instore? Gotta keep swimming!
I apologize to the blogosphere for the neglect here. Its bad, I know, I’m sorry.
That being said, here is a little update from my world:
As most of you in my private life know, I have been sick, since, well, Halloween of 2014. I talked about my various health issues back in Bumpy Ride.
Basically, I have been sick since Halloween 2014 and 7 doctors later, we still do not have an answer as to what my issue is. I feel like we are headed in the right direction, but nothing concrete yet.
What we do know:
I have ” immune deficency “
I have enlarged lymph nodes and thyroid
The issues are not the lymph nodes or the thyroid, they are just reacting to what ever is happening
No lyme disease, no lupus, no sarcoid, no mono, no rhumetoid arthritis , no Stills disease, no Castlemans disease
Medication is working!
That being said, I am ready to resume my life. I have been incredibly sore, like , my armpits hurt. Freaking weird, right? I mean, honestly, they still are sore, but not nearly as bad. I am currently on a medication they give to rhumetoid arthritis patients. At least I am able to function.
Here’s the thing, In the scheme of things, is what I have going on as bad as cancer? Or some terminal disease? Or even something that has required hospitalization? Nope. Even so, not feeling good day after day after day, gets wearing on you . I didn’t want to do anything. I didn’t want to move some days. I needed to get my hair done, didn’t want to . Not because I was being dramatic thinking I had cancer, but just because I didn’t want to do anything and I was going to let those grays run rampant! I needed some new clothes, did not want to get anything, not because new clothes are always an added expense, but just because , I did not want to do anything. I wanted to crawl into a hole, close my eyes and make the pain go away.
This whole process has been an emotionally fueled bad dream. It’s frustrating as hell knowing that my body has been telling me there is something wrong for a year and a half, yet the best doctors in the world cannot tell me what is wrong with me. I had to learn to accept the fact that this is a long process and I may not get an answer ever, certainly not soon. And I did.
It’s funny, I say ” Just Keep Swimming ” all the time to people to boost them, to encourage them, and the one person that forgets , is me. HOW EMBARRASSING!
Once I got the medication to help with the soreness, things started to get into place.
So, now I am managing the soreness. I got my hair done, ( goodbye grays! ) got some new clothes and finally, yes finally, Sweet Baby Jesus, I am ready to get my lard ass into the gym.
The hubs has shown interest in coming to the gym with me, however, we both have different goals and want to do different things. Like, I want to lift weights, CAUSE ITS AWESOME, and he has no desire, so say Planet Fitness would be good for him. It has what he is looking for, Bikes and low impact. Planet Fitness has no interest to me ,not saying its bad by any means, I just know what works for me and I need to do what is right for me. Hopefully we can find a happy medium 🙂
One thing I have learned and have the most trouble forgetting, is that THIS Journey, is about me. And what I want and what makes me happy.
Gotta keep swimming! Hopefully I will be back into the gym in the beginning of March.
Always remember to keep swimming, no matter the journey. Sometimes we just need to be reminded.
How have things been going for you in these past few months? Would love to hear your stories!
This is all a journey, right? I know, I keep saying this, but it so is. Ups and downs. I have been through a lot this year, in general. In trying to keep myself and my family afloat, I have forgotten about me and my journey. And that SUCKS!
I feel better now, My family is getting settled in our new place , and thats right folks, yours truly is getting BACK AT IT!!!!
WITH A VENGEANCE!!!!
I know I am no fitness role model, but gosh do I love working out. And I am so so so excited to be back at the gym tomorrow. Don’t get me wrong, I will be a hot flabby mess, and I will be sore as hell Tuesday, but I cannot WAIT!!!
Now, peoples usual reaction is ” why don’t you just go to a regular gym?” ” why not work out at home?” Both good questions, and yes, cheaper options, but at this point = I have found a format that works for me . Anyone who has struggled with weight loss and fitness knows that finding what works for you is half the battle.
I’m not making excuses, just explaining, I suppose, but I have had a pretty crappy year so far. I had a different focus than on myself and my journey and it was all about my family and my health. Not bad reasons to lose sight of your personal journey , but none the less, I was lost.
As I say, I did not just fall off the wagon – It was a horrific wagon crash with no survivors.
These past few weeks as I felt better and gave myself excuses why it was not the right time to get back into it, I revisited my blog. Revisited my posts, reread my journey, because, yes, there are things we forget. I am so glad I decided to do this blog, cause I much as I can remember events, those feelings swell back up when I go back and read about it again.
In that Spirit – Here are some of my ” Greatest Hits “
Tell me what you like about yourself and your looks.
Tell me what you dislike about yourself and your looks.
I bet you it is easier for you to answer the 2nd statement than the 1st.
Why is that ? Why is it so much easier to focus on the negatives than the positives? Especially when it comes to our bodies and how we perceive them ?
The beginning of every year has just about all of us focused on losing weight or getting fit. Our most common resolution is ” To fix ourselves”. I have found more and more that my thinking was wrong on the subject. If a skinny person told me that they ” need to lose 10 lbs” or ” I’m so fat” or something like that , my usual response was ” I wish I was fat like that ” or ” I wish I only had 10 lbs to lose”. My thought was, this person looks great, I would be so happy if I looked like them. It really never occurred to me, that they are unhappy with themselves. And who the hell am I to judge that , or be jealous?
We all have shit we want to work on, in some way or another. Some of us, want that to be our looks. Be it our size, our hair, our face, it doesn’t matter. We need to stop judging and just let everyone be themselves . Embrace that people want to change themselves for reasons that would make them happy.
Take this whole Bruce Jenner stuff going on at the moment. What ever is going on in Bruce’s life, its not our business. Regardless if they make a life in the public eye, what they want to do or be – its not the public’s call. Let Bruce be Bruce. Whoever that may be.
Then there is static about a plus size model in Sports Illustrated. Come on folks! People over a size 10 need a bathing suit too!
Why do we care so much ?
It all goes back to Body Image and what we want to be and how we see ourselves.
I have always had a negative image of myself. I really don’t know why, but I have. Let’s go over how crazy I am.
This is me as a baby with me momma. Prob 1981 . I have issues . I think I look like a monkey baby here.
Here I am in High School. This is where I thought I was fat. All size 7 , 128 lbs of me.
High School was really where I felt the worst, all by my own doing. I mean seriously, I thought I was fat here. What the hell was the matter with me? If only I could go back. But I can’t , I made this bed, and I am through lying in it. This was my goal picture. But I have to be realistic, I am 34 years old, not 17 anymore. It’s time I focus on being the best me that I can be, today. Not best me from 1997. It has taken me so long to get that through my head.
So here I am today. Working on myself and trying to get back to get to a place where I am happy with myself.
Its a journey as you all know. I think I have grown, not only stronger physically, but mentally since I made this decision to do something about myself. I keep swimming. Keep going.
I started back working out in January , and I am down 5 lbs!
Its slow and steady to win that race. There are no quick fixes and there are going to be set backs. I think we all need to get out of our own heads. I will get there. And you will too.
We need to focus on happiness within ourselves instead of what we look like.
Everyone no matter the size has something they don’t like, I am working on liking all my parts and making them what I want . We should be who we want, how we want and we shouldn’t care what anyone thinks.
I know that is not easy. But maybe we are all a work in progress through our lives, instead of a finished product. Always room to grow.
So I ask all of you now, Tell me what you like about yourself. Share it! Shout it from the rooftops! Be you ! Embrace all of your qualities!
Let’s get out there and change the world. WE can do it. One mindset at a time.
This is a workout where we raise money for Breast Cancer early detection in young folks. For just $80, one more person will know that they are living with Breast Cancer. This is staggering to me. My grandmother, while she did not have breast cancer when she was young, she is a survivor having been diagnosed later in life. If you are interested in donating or participating, you can find the information here.
I think if we all gave some of our time to a great cause, the world would be so much better of a place.
I am slowly getting into my new routine of morning classes . I have gone to the 5 am class . I am soooo not a morning person . But I am freaking determined to get my workouts in , no matter what .
That means a 4:15 am alarm. Sweet Baby Jesus. What on earth was I thinking ? That is what I kept saying to myself the ride to the gym yesterday . But the workout had snatches and box jumps which are my favorites, so I just focused on that .
We warmed up and went over the workout .
3 wall climbs
6 alt Db snatches – 30 lbs
12 box jumps
At first I grabbed a 22 lb weight figuring I would ease back into it instead of going to the 35 lbs I used to do. But , yeah , that was too light . So up to the 30 I went . I still used the 12″ box and instead of the 2 plates I would use before , I opted for (1) 45 lb plate. I figured it was shorten than I used to do . I can do it , no problemo .
Cha right ! The universe had other plans and apparently they had it out for my shins . I took my first jump and promptly missed the top instead coming down on either side of the box . Got some nice bruises. But hey, it’s all good ! I kept on going , took the plate off, but kept going.
My goal was 6 rounds . Knowing it would take me forever I figured if I got through half I would be happy .
Lo and behold – guess who got through almost 10 rounds ! Technically 9+17.
I felt so great the rest of the day, which I honestly was not really expecting.
Today’s class I was on the fence about going into it.
Push jerks 65 lbs
Power cleans 65 lbs
I used to be able to do 75 lbs, so I figured I would go for 55 lbs. Everyone else in the class could go heavier. But, 55 lbs ended up being way too light, so I went to 65 lbs.
This work out looks pretty easy, but if you dropped the bar during each set – like the 8th rep of the 10 set, then your penalty was 30 Mountain climbers. I figured for sure there were going to be tons of Mountain Climbers for me to do .
But, when I got the 1st set of 10 done, I knew I could do it. I just kept going , taking breaks between the sets and not the reps. The goal was 20 minutes. I thought for certain it was never going to happen, but guess who banged it out in 17:39? This gal!!!!
It was just what I needed to get me pumped. It wasn’t a PR, it wasn’t my best ever, but its the best I have been in so long, so I was down right thrilled!!!
This journey I am on has taken me some pretty cool places. Physical places and places within myself that I need to go more often. I keep using the word ” Journey” all the time, but , really, there is no greater word to use. Its not a secret that this year has not been my best. I have let myself down. But the biggest change within myself , by far, is that I am not letting myself be derailed. So while I may have not worked out in a month ( oh my fucking ugh) I have not lost sight of the goal.
This weekend, I took on one of the coolest things ever. Waterfall Rappelling. What the frack is that you ask? Lets go back to the beginning….
This past Thursday was my husband, Chad and I’s 15th wedding anniversary. We wanted to do something but not break the bank. So, a few months ago, we started looking and I found this deal on Living Social for Waterfall Rappelling. It was in the White Mountains of New Hampshire, I love the mountains. We decided it was a go. Bought the deal. We had a lot of questions and I have got to say, the owner of North Ridge Mountain Guides, Jamie, was amazing. We planned to go away for the weekend, with our waterfall excursion on a Saturday.
Jamie suggested The Bartlett Inn, in Bartlett NH. What a great place this was! Great owners at the Inn. We were complete pains in the ass. We had to arrive late on Friday, so we made several calls to make sure we would be all set. When we arrived on Friday and found a note on the door addressed to us with complete detailed directions to our cabin, I knew we were going to be good. It was a cute little cottage with 2 rooms. A big bedroom with queen poster bed and fireplace and another room with a mini kitchen and living room area. Then there was a jacuzzi tub in the bathroom. It was really clean, something I noticed right off the bat.
We had to meet the waterfall group at 9 am in Twin Mountain at the NRMG office. So, we got up early. The Inn offers breakfast every day. They have a special each day and if you do not care for that, you can go for eggs.
We walk into the main house and are greeted by a nice guy offering us juice or coffee. There is limited space for eating so they have a common waiting area and cycle folks in as others finish. We are then greeted by one of the owners, Nick. I cannot say enough about his personality. Just a great guy. He states that he knows we need to meet Jamie and says he is going to do something he does not normally do. He set us up for breakfast at a table in the main living area. He got us in and out with a delish breakfast. We then “officially” checked in, got our key and Nick even gave us directions to the office where we were meeting the group. We were on the road around 8:20 am. Now, I have an excellent sense of direction – Excellent. I am very good with directions. I do not get lost. Until this day. I drove right by it. When we are driving along in the White Mountain National Forest, I knew I had gone too far. So, the hubs called up and they very nicely gave us directions to turn around and head back . We arrived around 9:15 . I hate being late. Hate it. Felt like an ass.
Now this is where, the big steps on this journey are taken…. I walk into this place and am visibly the largest person in here, and I walked in late. Awkward. We are greeted by Jamie and Travis. Super nice guys. We start cracking some jokes and start chatting with the others waiting. And I am like – shit this is real and we are going to do this. We got our harnesses and our helmets.
There were 10 of us in the group. We got in our cars and we caravan to the site where would would hike, then hit the waterfall. We parked and got our stuff together and headed down the trail. It was the ” Falling Waters Trail” .
We had to go under the highway to get to the trail, we were greeted by these 3 forest rangers or workers. One of them was this little older bitty with purple hair. She was fierce! They told us it was about 1.3 -1.4 miles to Cloudland Falls. An 80 foot waterfall. I wore my sneakers, I didn’t have hiking boots and realistically, I was not going to buy some just for one day. It was a trail, so rocks to climb up, mud to get around, uneven ground. We had to cross the river a few times, at this point, we were going to get wet anyways, so it didn’t matter.
Honestly I thought I was doing okay with it. We stopped a few times on our way up. Stayed together. Jamie mingled in with us while we headed up, I thought that was cool. He spent time with all of us. About 1 mile in I was dying. It didn’t help that the whole time, there are dogs running back and forth no problem. then , not just big dogs, but little ones , with their little legs. what the hell? here I am dying and these little puppies are running along, no problem. All I kept thinking was ” Are we there yet? ” and ” Just keep walking “. I was bringing up the rear when I asked Travis how far we had left, and thank the Sweet Baby Jesus, he said its right up ahead. And it was! We set up at the base of these beautiful falls.
Jamie gave us a lesson on the equipment that we would be using and set up some ropes so we could practice while Travis headed to the top of the falls to set up the ropes. He explained the hand signals they use as well . So, we get our harnesses on and I have a mini panic attack, cause I can barely get this thing over my fat ass. Thank goodness, I just had to loosen it. It was very odd to wear, but we were all wearing them, so, not so bad! I get in line to try it out and he shows me this tiny little strap thing. I cannot for the life of me remember the name of the piece. But it is like a little piece of fabric sewn together. You take this fabric and tie it through your harness and it is what the carabiner hooks onto . The other end is hooked to the rope. So of course he is explaining all of this and my only thought is, this guy is out of his tree. Like not just out of his tree, but he fell out, hit his head and forgets what a tree is. I ask – ” This little thing is going to hold me? ” His response – ” Absolutely” He goes on to explain the ratings on the equipment and what they mean. Basically, I was getting freaked out and the equipment was rated for 5000 lbs. Once we were all confident with trying it out, it was time to climb the rocks and head to the falls. I raise my hand to go first. I figured, if I can do it, anyone can.
The trail from the base of the falls to the place where we were starting from was hell. We literally had to climb up rocks, then walk over more rocks, trying not to fall off the edge and not to slip in the mud to get to the start point. But of course, who slips? Of course its me. I was terrified I was going to slip right down the side. I got right back up and got my footing, waiting my turn. Figured if I fell before the falls, then I would not fall to my death on them.
Two lines were set up with each guide assisting on each one. I ended up going second. So, I watched the first guy go, It took him a bit and then we hear the screaming. It was confirmed, they were “good screams” . Then its my turn . And I was hooked up and getting into place. Jamie went down with me the first part of the way. The Water was sooooo cold! They told us to watch out for green or black stuff on the rocks, its slippery. I start dropping myself down and Jamie is guiding me on where to go. It is a very surreal feeling. The rocks look slippery, but they are not. Once you get past that, its just dealing with the cold ass water. I started moving my way down. It was soooo freaking cool!!!! Such an awesome feeling. I keep moving , following my directions. Then I get to the spot. There is this spot in the falls where Jamie warned us that we would ” become stupid” and our IQ would drop. It is the spot where the water starts gushing on you and it is sooooo cold and you totally go stupid. At that point, my thought was ” make it to the bottom, make it to the bottom”. But that was no better, we ended in a pool at the bottom about knee high! Once you hit the ground, you had to unstrap yourself, release the rope and hand off your equipment to the next person. THEN – you bask in ultimate glory cause you just RAPPELLED DOWN A WATER- FREAKIN- FALL!!! We would cheer each other on when we got to the bottom. Got to meet some really great folks!
Then it was my husband Chad’s turn. He finished in about 4.5 minutes!!!! Faster than anyone!!! He will not let me live that down, lol.
It was so much fun, we did it again and both went down twice! Some folks even did 3 times! After everyone was done, it was back down the mountain to end our day.
Here are some pics of me on the waterfall:
At the bottom! Success!
This was one of the coolest, most awesome, things I have ever done. Being someone who is overweight, I don’t always think I can do these things. It was a huge thing for me to step out of that comfort zone. I didn’t let the weight stop me . And though I plan on getting rid of this weight, its here for the moment and I am not going to let it stop me. We are already planning on going back up north next summer and trying ziplining! That does have a weight limit, but I will for certain be under it by next summer.
For now, I am happy to be a plus sized adventurer.
Once we got back to the inn, we were starving. We hit up a local mexican restaurant, Margarita Grill. To say the Margaritas were delish or amazing or awesome does not do them justice. I got the Strawberry Lemonade Margarita and the hubs got the Jalapeno Margarita. SOOOOOOOOO GOOOODDDD!!!! Food was excellent as well. Then it was back to the inn for a fire pit.
The Inn put on this great fire pit with marshmallows for the kiddos. We brought some chocolate and graham crackers to share. We brought along some adult beverages too. It was so nice. We sat by the fire and chatted up with the different families. We ended up staying out with the inn keeper and some of the guests til 10 pm. The sky was full of stars, so beautiful.
This was a weekend I will never forget , for so many reasons. I challenged myself and I conquered the waterfall!!!
I know I sound like an ad for these companies, in no way did I receive any compensation for this. These are my opinions. I just want to share our experience because it really was great.
If you ever go the the White Mountains of New Hampshire, explore! There is so much to see and do. I have been going to the mountains since I was a kid and to have such a magnificent new experience is something I did not even think of.
Stepping outside your comfort zone is good , taking the highway there is even better!