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Red to Gray

 

Did I say UGH?

Cause what I meant was UGH.

 

 

Let me just start off by saying how ugh I am right now . I am so incredibly pissed at myself and Wednesday nights workout was the icing on the damn cake .

I realize I have sucked lately , I am trying to get my groove back and failing miserably . I am trying to eat better and get this extra weight off that I put back on , I think I’m doing good and bam! Wednesday failure , fucking ugh . And I have no one to blame but myself but, throw me a fricken bone here !

So yesterday , here’s what happened:
Wednesdays workout was :
1-2-3-4-5-6-7-8-9-10 thrusters (I used 60 lbs)
20-18-16-14-12-10-8-6-4-2 box jumps ( I used 12″ box with 45 lb plate )
So it was thrusters, box jumps , thrusters , box jumps , you get the idea. I love box jumps , since I have been able to get on the box , it is my most favorite move , by far . So I was pumped for this , figured I could finish this in the time given. Thrusters would suck but I could do this . Timer goes off and we start going . For as long as I can remember when ever I do any sort of physical activity, my face gets red, I can feel it. Always been that way . This was an intense workout so of course I am going to be red. I didn’t think too much of it when my coach Jane came over to check on me , they usually check in with everyone , we get amazing personal attention . But as the workout went on , I could tell I was off , way off , to the point where I knew I had to stop. I was fighting back tears because I once again let myself down on something I CAN do and do pretty well. I stood by the window to get some fresh air and Jane checks in on me again and tells me I have gone from ” bright red to gray” a hilarious thought actually but serious and shitty . I sat down , I was shaking , trying to breathe / catch my breath. I just sat there and watched the rest of the class finish . My friend Jen, grabbed me a protein bar and it hit me that I hadn’t eaten much that day . I wolfed that sucker down . What a fuckin idiot I was , I was doing this workout and only ate a bowl of American chop Suey the whole day ! So stupid !

I  feel like I am constantly failing myself and its driving me nuts.  This journey is all me.  No one decides this – just me.  It is so mental its crazy.  I have been stuck and I swear its tar.  I was so upset driving home.

But, it was just one workout.  One day.  As much as I feel stuck and frustrated, the old me would of been derailed.  So, what did I do?

I went right back to class Thursday and was psyched!

Thursday I finished my workout in time and PR’d my Front Squats! Oh Fucking Yeah!

Here is how I did:

Front Squat Strength 5×3

3 x 65lbs, 3 x 65 lbs, 3 x 75 lbs, 3x 75 lbs, 3 x 80 lbs! <—————   PR BABY!!!

Workout for Time

5 Rounds

5 Ring Dips

25 Double unders

Time 11:54

I am still on the green band to assist with my dips, but I was finally able to lock my arms and keep the rings closer to me.  It felt great!  The DU, Coach Holly let me use her speed rope.  Boy! I did so much better than I have done lately with them.  I whipped the shit out of myself, but I did more DU’s than I have in such a long time, it felt so good.

 

Now, the ultimate sign, that yes, I am growing and changing.  Today my office got take out from Kelly’s Roast Beef.  A Boston classic.  I have written before about their cheesy fries.  Good Lord are they delicious.   I opted for the grilled chicken sandwich.  Yes, I suppose a salad would of been the healthiest choice, but for me, resisting the cheesy fries as they danced in front of me, tray after tray after delicious tray, was a VICTORY.

 

 

I have to keep swimming along, if I don’t , I am going to sink to the bottom, and AIN’T NO BODY GOT TIME FOR THAT!

For those who have seen the Sweet Brown Video – enjoy.  If you have not seen it, check it out.   It is Hilarious!

 

This gave me a chuckle!
This gave me a chuckle!

 

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Daily Rants and Raves

This week so far

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Good Morning People!

I have been at it this week with the workouts!  This week is a shorter week at my gym, so I had class Monday and Tuesday.  I wanted to make sure I got in as much as I could before I stuff my face on Thursday.  And yes, I will be stuffing my face.  Not overdoing it too much, but a good face stuffing here and there never hurt anyone 🙂

What are you looking forward to on Thanksgiving? I, most of all, am looking forward to time spent with family ❤

These are my workouts from this week so far, lets break down how I did:

Monday

We did Squat Clean practice – 6×3.  I improved! My weight went from 55 lbs to 65 lbs! I felt kinda stuck at 55 lbs, I am so glad I am stronger so I can increase it.  Not saying I want to be a body builder by any means, but this experience has totally changed my perspective on fitness and what I want out of mine. So, yeah, I want to be fit an able to lift a bunch of weight.

Then we had a 15 minute WOD – 4 rounds.

10 Alternating DB snatches – 35 lbs! – I really like snatches, I have since I started them, I felt 35 lbs was challenging too. But I did it!

15 Hollow Rocks – now these bad Larry’s….. ugh. I got through them, but thought I was going to snap in half.  They totally sound like fun, like you are a human see saw, until you do them.

25 Double Unders – so we could count our Double Under Attempts, which I did not hear the first round, so I did a bunch. My DU’s are still a work in progress, but I got 4 in a row, so that was good.  I got a lot more than I have in the past in the workout, so more progress.

My time was 16:04 ( they let me finish the last of the DU’s) I finished later, but I finished. And for me, that is cool beans.

Tuesday

We did Back Squat technique and practice and handstand practice before the WOD.

50 Back Squats – 55 lbs

40 V ups

30 Power Cleans – 55 lbs

20 Lateral Hop Burpees – oh my Sweet Baby Jesus! Burpees are my current nemesis. They take me forever.  Mostly because I cannot get my legs to jump in, so I kinda waddle it in.  I really need to find a way to get better at them. Honestly, we do them a lot and I feel I should be better, guess it is going to take some at home practice.

10 Hand stands – okay, so It was supposed to be handstand push ups, but I am not there yet. At least I am on the wall, and can do a handstand.   I have to work on getting myself to stay on the wall.  But at least I did not fall this time!  I will say this again, though, Hand Stands are totally mental more than physical.

My time for this was 18:34 .

 

2 nights in a row, after being out for 2 weeks felt really good. Getting back into full swing.   I feel like I am at home in my gym with my awesome peeps.

To date, I am down 35 lbs! Oh yeah baby! I would love to be down another 15 by the end of the year, but I do not think that is realistic for me.  I have been losing about 5 lbs a month.  And with all the holiday food that will be coming and make its way to my face, its going to be a challenge.  But , you know, this year, I feel I am better equipped to make better decisions, and maybe will stay away from the 2nd serving of mashed potatoes.

 

And for some laughs – check out this cartoon:

   Thankgiving Cartoon

Hope you all have a Happy and Safe Thanksgiving !!!

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Milestones

Double Unders …. Check!

 

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That’s right folks! Those pesky double unders – I did them today!!!! More than once! Now, granted the most I got was 2 in a row, but I did it!!!! For those of you who have no idea what a double under is – it is when you jump rope and the rope goes under you 2 times in 1 jump.  I have literally been working on this since March, so this is a BIG deal.  HUGE. When I did it, I was so shocked, I stopped and had to double check that I did it.

They look like this : http://youtu.be/2TfjmxeUsIs

These past couple of weeks have been amazing for me. I feel like all these months are really coming together. Pullups, ring dips, and now double unders!  It is freaking awesome and I love it!

For so long I have been looking for something amazing, I wanted to do something amazing.  And though this is not what I was thinking of, you bet your ass I found what I was looking for.  I am on my way to being a fit person….me, who’d thunk? I am happy.  So very happy with this journey, I could cry.  And most likely will 🙂

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