Daily Rants and Raves

Mind Over Body

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The past few days , good ol’ Meganitis has been reminding me that she is still here.  My damn armpits are hurting again.  Yup. It’s as wonderful as it sounds.  I am really trying to not let this rule my life as It has.  There are surely going to be days where I need to listen to my body, but I am just getting back into working out, so I was determined to go last night.

It was a long work out:

1 min of each for 5 rounds, 1 min rest between rounds

Battle Ropes

Bike

Burpee Tire Flips

DB High Plank Rows 7.5 lbs

Goblet Squats 15lb KB

 

Going into it I was worried about the burpee tire flips.  Burpees + Me = No Bueno.  My burpees are terrible, I am limited on how I can do them with my knee and my mobility, but I can do a modified version.  I managed to do about 3 each round, I found that to be a victory.

The thing I struggled he most with was the DB High Plank Rows. And I was only using 7.5 lbs! UGHHH.  Sweet Baby Jesus were my hands killing me.  Its a lot of weight to be resting on those dumbbells.  I didn’t think I would struggle with it as much as I did, but man was it hard.  At one point, I tried to pick my hand up and it just would not go.  But I didn’t give up.  I was slow but I kept at it.

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I think another thing that is affecting me and the Meganitis is the weather.  It’s been pretty rainy here and it does a number on me.  As I type this , my armpits are throbbing.  I can feel my lymph nodes enlarging.  I am just praying that I can hold the Meganitis at bay.

Having a chronic illness sucks.  Not knowing what it is, sucks worse.  I know it could be way worse and by no means am I having a pity party. It just sucks.

Getting into a mental state of mind where I can let go of the illness and just be me, is not easy.  It is hard to get in a mindspace that I can be stronger than this and I can’t let it rule my world.

Honestly, today I have felt like I just want to crawl in bed and not move, but its after 10 pm and I am not even in bed yet, lol.

It is a challenging journey that I am on.  I can only take it day by day and

Just Keep Swimming !

 

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Partner WOD

Partner WOD. I hate the word.

As I hate hell, all Partner WODs.

Partner WOD is, in my opinion , the worst damn thing that can be on the board in the gym besides burpees.  For those that are physically unfit, the Partner WOD is our chance to drag down our partners and struggle to keep up.  That’s not exactly how it is, and if you ask any partner of the unfit, you will get the ” don’t worry about it”, ” no big deal response”.  But for me, its like a death sentence.

I know, I know , I am being super dramatic. But picture this if you will.  Me, being the new kid on the block again , not knowing ANY of these people and knowing how limited I am . And these folks, I am sure were like, ” Ain’t no body got time for her” (they were all actually very nice, but still ) I could feel the sense of fear in my eyes as the coach  was explaining the work out.  I even offered to do it by myself so I would not bring anyone down.  No go.

It’s not that I don’t want to be part of a team or have a partner – some folks are hardcore, balls the wall, keep track of every rep and push it to the limit.  I would never want to hinder anyone’s success. That’s my issue with it.  On the other hand , it is nice to have some one to push you.

So the way the workout went yesterday was partner 1 did a run, then partner 2 did a move.  There were 3 of us in my group, my set was based on one persons stuff, so when she ran, I rowed. Here is how I did:

35 min AMRAP

Row 506m (rowed while partner ran )

DB Hang Squat Cleans 7.5lbs ( ugh but man it was hard!) 26

Rowed 490 m

159 single jumps

Rowed 470m

Kettlebell swings 18lbs – 32

Rowed 438m

Hands Release Push Up – 13 (I was DYING at this point )

Rowed 460m

DB Hang Squat Cleans  15

Row 480 m

140 Single Jumps

So first off – it was an AMRAP and Any AMRAP I go into praying to the Gods that I can make it through at least 1 round . This workout I was able to due to the fact it was a partner WOD. So yeah , victory ! In my eyes . And I only said “Just Keep Swimming ” twice , lol. Those pushups, man , those were rough .

All in all , I am really happy with the workout I did . I was feeling great and dying at the end – so to me , total success! I really think these classes are going to be awesome for me .

It’s all coming together!

Hope you all have a great rest to your week!  It’s Thursday, that means I need to do my shot, it’s a pain in the ass but a small price to pay for feeling better.

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Blue and Green Walk

This past Sunday I proudly walked in the Boston Blue and Green Walk .  It was to raise awareness for Organ and Tissue Donation.  My dear, sweet, momma was the recipient  of not 1, but 2 Kidneys.  She also received countless blood transfusions.  The need for organ donation is so high.  So many people are on numerous lists waiting and waiting and waiting for organs.  Life saving organs.

My mother was such a believer in organ donation and everyone being organ donors.  We were so very lucky that we had family that donated to my mom. My aunt and my cousin truly gave the gift of life.  They alone gave us so many more years with her that we would not have had with her.  There can never be enough thanks to them for those gifts.

It was such a positive day , full of inspirational stories.  We completed the walk, it ended up being about 2.75 miles. I had a huge NSV ( non scale victory ) where I actually did the walk without struggling.  Like for really reals, I did it and didn’t die, lol. Huge for me.  Maybe I am starting to turn a corner.

Here are some pictures from our day :

 

I only found out about this walk a few weeks ago, next year, I hope to get a big team together for it.

It seems like this month has just sucked on a whole.  I’m looking forward to some better days ahead.  Sometimes, we all just need a break.  I feel like that at some point we are all due to for that break.  I think its my turn.

Gotta Keep Swimming!!!!

 

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A good workout a long time coming

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Hello everyone!

Let me tell you – I feel good! I had a great workout last night.  It was tough but  a good tough, for me, and it was modified for me , which was great too.  But it kicked my ass.  I have been searching for a new class. I need to workout.  I know what works for me and the classes work.  I don’t want to go to  regular gym, I need the structure of the classes and the push of the coaches.  I have found what I am looking for!

So, I gave it a whirl last night.  I was terrified and excited all at the same time.  After the warm up – it was go time.  The workout was a ladder, work down it, then do it in reverse. Here is the work out as I did it:

125m row – 10 mountain climbers – 40 single jumprope jumps – 10 BW squats – 125 m row – 10 HR pushups – 40 Single jumps – 10 reverse lunges – 125 m row – 5 burpees ( way modified ) -40 single jumps – 10 broad jumps – 125 m row – 10 knee raises ( or knee raise attempts ) – 40 single jumps – 10 knee raises ( or attempts) -125m row – 10 Broad jumps – 40 jumps -5 way modified burpees  – 125 m row – 10 reverse lunges – 40 jumps – 10 HR pushups – 125 m row – 10 BW squats – 40 jumps – 10 mountain climbers – 125 m row

My time was 26:36.  This , I thought was a great first workout back.  It felt great to be working out.  And I only said “just keep swimming ” to myself 2 times, lol.  Those damn burpees. Even barely being able to do a modified version of them, I was dying.  Somethings never change.

I am sore today , but its a good sore and its not a Meganitis sore,so that is even better.  I really feel this is going to be good for me and I am excited to be starting this new part of my journey.

Never give up .  Even if your journey takes you down long twisted paths, as long as you make your way to your happiness – it doesn’t matter how long it takes.

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It’s My Birthday !

Yes, you read it right, its my birthday, July 4th.  Happy Independence Day America!

I will say, today has been a good day .  We have a cookout every year on the 4th with family and friends.  Its great to catch up with everyone.  I am very blessed that I have, what I feel, is a very close family.  I love them all dearly .

What royally sucks is , even still now, I keep waiting for my Mom to call and say Happy Birthday.  I know, I’m now 38 , but damn, I still miss her like she left yesterday.  This has loomed over me all day, and I can’t shake the ache in my heart.  Ugh, sucks.

In other news, I have officially hit 2 weeks post surgery .  I am feeling really good!  I am pretty surprised actually.  My right side is still tender, but that is subsiding as well.  I have to say, I really hate taking some of my medications as liquid instead of pill form.  I mean like recoil when I have it, can’t wait until that shit is over.  I am still mainly on Protein shakes but in this stage, but I have been having other stuff too. Nothing really solid, but I have had protein bars – had no problem with them.  I did attempt some chicken , small little pieces and I chewed very well, but that did not end well. Lesson learned.  Since it was my birthday, and I could not have the cheeseburger and chips I have become accustomed to at a cookout, I opted to give my sisters pulled pork a small try.  No roll of course, but a small scoop- I took my time with eating it and I had no issues! And it was delish! A scoop filled me up with was great.  Birthday Gods must of been having a convo with the surgery Gods and must of been like ” ok, let her have this one” , lol.  Also, I did not have any cake.  I made sugar free chocolate pudding and had some sugar free cool whip with it.  My daughter and nephew got me my bowl of it.  They brought me a bowl full of sloppy pudding and cool whip all mixed together, bless their hearts.  I could eat about a quarter of the bowl, if even that .  Its the thought that counts.

Since my incisions have not fully healed yet – that meant I had to stay out of the pool – on a 90 degree day.  Soooo, I got creative. I bought a little kiddie pool and filled it up half way.  Created my oasis next to the big pool. I could sit in it with out getting my stomach wet, but still keep cool in the water.  It was heaven.  I was cool, next to the action and my nieces and nephew kept popping in keeping me company – all while obeying the ” Auntie no splash zone”.  I just love those kids. ❤  The hubs even hung out with me for while in there until he defected to the big pool , can’t say I blamed him, lol.

Last night we spent with family at my sisters new home to see the fireworks in my home town. To say it as a scorcher, is an understatement.  It had to of been at least 95 degrees and humid as hell on top of it.  It did not stop us from having  a really wonderful time.  The fireworks were great and there were sparklers for the kiddos. ( supervised and very safe , just saying ) .

My daughter Maddie with her sparkler. She had so much fun!

All in all , I can say it has been a great couple of days.  Follow up appointments next week with my surgeons.  Hopefully I will find out when I  will be cleared to head back to the gym, cause I am itching to get working out.

Happy Independence Day Everyone!

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Onward and Upward

Happy Saturday Everyone!

Well its been quite the week. Starting off on Sunday, my daughter and I took a walk out in the woods with my Dad lookin for birds.  She has become quite the little birder.  My dad set her up with her own binoculars, a field guide and a journal to keep track of all the new birds she sees.  I need to start walking .  Its just pretty painful with my arthritic knee.  In any case, I did he walk. I was dying .  By the end I was saying ” Just Keep Swimming” “Just Keep swimming”  It was a whopping mile walk.  I know I know -sad.

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I know its not much, but it was a struggle which in itself was eve more motivating.  I know this surgery is going to be a big boost for me if I do it right and follow the plan.   I did get a couple of pics of a butterfly we saw on our walk.

On Tuesday I started my Pre Op diet and had my preop testing .  I stocked up on Protein shakes, bars and greek yougurt.  I as stressing about it, but now on day 5 – I am feeling pretty good about it.  Its crazy but I actually felt good walking out of the hospital this week.

Looking forward to the next week ahead.

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Continuing the Journey

Hello World,

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How goes it?

Well, I have been continuing the weight loss surgery journey.  Latest steps were the Upper GI, which I thought was an endoscopy, so on the day of the procedure, I went to the endoscopy unit.  They looked at me like I had 2 heads, they told me I had to go back down to the ultrasound area.  I went there – that was wrong too. Ugh. Turns out it was an Upper GI and I had to go to this tiny room right next to ultrasound.

They call me in and I have to get into a gown and then they tell me I have to drink ” the stuff”.  Now, I had nothing to eat or drink prior to this, an it was later in the afternoon.  “The Stuff” is nasty.  I mean like heavy liquid chalk. It is technically called Barium something or other.  So they have me stand up against this table thing and drink, on command. I get shivers just thinking about it.  Then they tell me they are going to lay me back so I literally get to the point where I am laying down in this machine.

What better time to have me roll around ? Seriously.  Roll over, like I am a damn dog. A big huge, fatty mcbutter dog.  SO I roll over a few times , then I get to lay on my stomach and drink a different nasty drink  – with a straw ….. ooohhhh ahhhhhh.  Still gross.

Its over and the doctor tells me it looks like I do have a hiatal hernia.  My doctor had told me that this was common so I wasn’t too worried when they told me what they suspected.  Later that week, my doctor called me and told me that I do have the hernia and I also have a Schatzki Ring in my esophagus.  Never heard of that before, guessing most of you have not heard of it either.

A Schatzki ring, also known as a Schatzki-Gary ring, is a narrowing of the lower part of the esophagus — a muscular tube through which food passes to the stomach.

Now, I very rarely get heart burn or acid reflux.  I am not on any medication for them other than the occasional Tums.  But based on the Upper GI – I have to have an Endoscopy.  Like the real one this time.  I wasn’t too nervous – the nurse I had was very nice.  It’s weird, I had ” mild sedation” they said but all I remember is them putting the thing in my mouth so I wouldn’t bite the scope, then I woke up.  Nothing too exciting .

Because I am a crazy person, I am constantly checking my doctors patient gateway to see test results.  My endoscopy comes in and it confirms the ring , but then it starts in with some medical mumbo jumbo and I have no clue what it means. Even googling ( which is THE WORST thing you could ever do when it comes to medical crap ) and even then, I am still confused. So, I emailed the doc, then called, yeah, I am a pain in the ass.  He called me back tonight ( which I think is cool, that he called me tonight ) an told me that my endoscopy showed inflammation of my esophagus but it it not a deal breaker! I can still have the surgery !

Hooray !

I was really worried that it was something serious, but I am so happy I can keep on the path.

Next up the pre op diet – starting on 6/5.  2 weeks of the pre op diet to shrink the liver down .

Bring it on !

Whats new in your world?

Have a great week everyone!

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