Holy crap!!! It’s true – I FEEL GOOD!!!!
I do not know what caused this change but man, is it great. I am not sore . I am not in pain. My skin is not on fire. My armpits do not hurt.
I don’t know why any of this has happened or how long it will last, but baby, I am rolling with it.
I have been really evaluating my life lately.
Things I know for sure:
- I have to lose this weight – I talked to Coach Jane and next week I am starting back at the gym. I have tried all sorts of ways to lose weight and honestly, the thing that worked for me the best was going to the gym and training with a coach. And Coach Jane is incredible. She pushes me and that is what I need. I just gotta push through the pain . Now hopefully my workout clothes still fit. I am really excited. But I know that taking this step in the condition I am in is going to challenge me immensely. Hopefully this old broken body is ready for this ride.
- I need to change my diet. I have read that the best diet for reducing inflammation is the ” Mediterranean Diet” Basically heavy on the fish and omega 3 oils. Yeah, I cannot eat fish. I can’t stand the smell of it, I think I have been scarred by too may co-workers microwaving fish …… UGHHHHHH. But, I need to do something, I think I am going to give Gluten Free a try again , I am still on the fence, but I need to make a change.
- I need to take care of me. I need to listen to my body and not overdo it.
- I am so blessed and lucky. I have such a great family. You should be jealous. I am just so lucky. I am lucky to have been raised by the most incredible creature to ever walk this earth. I am lucky because I have a partner in life who has my back. He is more than my rock. He is my strength. I am lucky because I am a mother to 3 kids who continually amaze me. I have good kids. I am so proud. I am lucky because I am the oldest of 3 girls and I have sisters that give me such strength when I am down . They have given my nephew and nieces, great men I consider brothers. I have friends who are more than friends, they are family. I have aunts and cousins who I actually talk to and see. They are more than cousins, they are my big bros and big sis. I am lucky because I have a good job. I am thankful we have a roof over our head and food in our bellies.
Today was a good day . I am hopeful that it continues and I can become a human again.
Gotta see the light through the darkness. I need to do that more often. It’s the best way to honor my mom. She dealt with so much, I feel bad bitching about my issues , knowing how much she had to endure. I miss her so much. Grief is horrible.
But ==== I am not going to wallow!!!! Mum would not want that.
Today was a good day and I am rolling ( or swimming ) with it.