Happy New Year Everyone!
When last you checked in with your heroine ( me), I was at the end of months waiting to find out if a lump in neck was cancerous or not.
I AM ECSTATIC TO REPORT THAT EVERYTHING CAME BACK NEGATIVE! ALL CLEAR!
After months of emotional turmoil, I got the best end result and for that, I could not be any more grateful. My life was on hold and now I feel I have my life back. I feel I have to live life to the fullest.
I am so very grateful from the bottom of my heart for all of you who sent me messages, prayed for me, thought of me, and sent your positivity my way. I am so blessed, truly, truly blessed. I will forever cherish all the goodness that was sent my way .
Now back to our regular scheduled program….
I have not done a workout, like entered the gym, since October 15, 2014. Then, before that, my workouts were spurratic at best. Here and there for really the last 6 months.
No more excuses my friends.
Got back into the gym this week on Tuesday. A humbling and disappointing time, but, it had to be done so I can move on. I am so out of shape from where I was, its disgusting. I am ashamed I let myself slip back so much into the dark. So, what did I tell myself? You know it…. Everyone together…
The WOD was 3 rounds, the usual suspects. Cleans, Burpees, Thrusters, lunges. I sucked it. Hard. But I knew I was going to. What I didn’t think I would have to do was resort to the training bar. Good Lord. The training bar. I used to be able to lift 65-75 lbs over my head and now I struggle with 15 lbs.
Sweet Baby Jesus.
So, since this was 3 rounds, my goal was at least 2 . And I did meet my goal. But, man, was it hard. And the soreness I have been feeling sucks hard. I knew that was coming, but its something I just gotta get through. I was so sore by Thursday, stairs were excruciating. I almost wasn’t going to go to the gym, but I decided I just need to get there and move. Even if it is modified to the enth degree, I need to move and hopefully it would also loosen me up.
I went. It was a wicked fun workout – granted just about every move was modified but I finished the workout and got a great work out in. Felt so damn good . Really. I do love working out, I love the feeling afterward, I love the soreness, I love the feeling of accomplishment. I need this. I need to keep it up.
Lets talk Resolutions. Do you make them? Do you keep them?
Me, neither, lol.
I do make goals for myself. For the time being, the goal is to get down under 200 lbs by my 35th birthday in July. I think its going to be hard, but I do think its doable. I am going to get back into the swing of things. I am going to succeed. I am going to conquer.
Thank you for coming on the swim and sticking by me through the crap. I hope to make you proud.
Until next time Kids….