Honestly, that is an understatement. It has been a horrible, shitty, terrible, emotionally draining week.
My mother was admitted to the hospital on Monday and has been there ever since. She is very ill. She has a slew of medical issues which make everything so much worse. This time it was trouble breathing that sent her to the ER. She is still on oxygen. There is so much more, but to relive and go through all her issues, we would be here all night. There is no greater fighter on this earth than my mother. I thank God for her everyday and pray to God every night that I get just one more minute with her. She has a crazy positive outlook on life, finding the happiness within the darkest hours. That is what gets us through. I just want her to be better and to not be in pain. I want her to be “normal” like she wants. She deserves better than the hand she has been dealt, but she handles it with grace.
So, as of this week , I have not worked out. I need to get back. I feel my body expanding. Every night this week I went to work and went straight from work to the hospital. I could of gotten a walk in when I got home from all that, but I am so tired. I way overstuffed my face this weekend, thinking , I will be at class next week and work it off. Ugh.
And this is what always happens to me. I get going, I am doing great, feeling good – then bam! My world is rocked. Something happens and I fall off the wagon, rather, have that terrible wagon wreck. Just so happens this time my world is my Mom.
Now more than ever, I need to be healthy. I need to be my best. So this time – my world is not being rocked – more like a slight bobble. I will be back at my classes next week, continue to eat better and succeed! I need to keep swimming, for my momma. She is so proud of me and this journey and I can’t let her down.
How do you deal with the bumps in the road that come up?
This is the board in my Mom’s room with our goals for her 🙂
Good night everyone! Hug your Momma’s tight!